My Mini Me

I was in the middle of a meeting when I got the call. The call that would change my life even further.

I'm having a baby girl.

What name will I give her? She has an amazing personality already. Fluttering around in my belly. I feel her vibrate and buzz around when I least expect it. It is the most fascinating experience of my life. It is pure magic.


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