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My Crystal Child

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I know she’s getting ready. I know she knows what is to come next. I keep asking her when will she be here because I am at the point now where I miss her. I know, I know. It's strange because she is in me and with me every moment. But I am ready to have her in my arms now. The connection is so profound, it's unexplainable with words. A couple of nights ago, I had a most intriguing dream. It alarmed me at first, but I pieced things together and was pleasantly delighted with what I realized was a message from my baby. Dreams during pregnancy are unlike any others. They are, by far, in a league of their own. I was in the kitchen of my former home. They say that dreaming about a kitchen is a strong omen of change and positive outcomes because it is the heart of the home. I had discovered a clear crystal trying to come out of my belly. I was so concerned about it because it seemed so real! I would touch it and it would move like it wanted to come out of me. I made attempts t

You Are My Sunshine

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Well, here we are. Today I'm officially on month 9. The journey within this time has been transformational, to say the least. Decisions were made. My new life path has been shown. The dreams and goals I had now include my new human; and I wouldn't want it any other way. I keep saying, she is all I have ever wanted love to be. And I mean that with all of my heart and soul. She has gotten me through this. She has gotten me through my times of confusion and my questioning. She has gotten me through my ugly cries, too. Most of all, she has made me who I am today, full of gratitude with the reality of her and the reality that she chose me to be her mama. We are in this together. To the path that will show itself upon her arrival, I embrace every new thing that is about to happen. She is my sidekick, my mini me, my beautiful baby, my everything. We are at the home stretch, my little one. I told myself I would start a countdown for baby girl after my birthday rolls around. But the

Shapeshifting

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There is no way I would avoid acknowledging how fascinating it is to watch my baby move and shape shift my belly. Haha! She has been playing with me today for the past ten minutes. She will kick first and then I'll tap on my belly. Then she will kick again. We have been doing this back and forth and it is the most incredible thing to witness; I have been smiling and giggling the entire time. It is literally in the realm of being other worldly. Once she was done kicking, she full blown shape shifted and created a wave with my belly. The movements are so profound at this point of my pregnancy that it is quite a sensation to feel when it happens. It just reminds me of Sigourney Weaver and her alien baby moving around in her belly and I can't help but laugh and continue to enjoy this experience. It has been the most miraculous experience of my life. She is definitely heavy. She is a perfect round little ball of a belly. I love her so much. The nursery got its final touches